So, apparently, some of my symptoms that I laid at the doorstep may not be related to thyroid disorder. According to my doctor, I am bordering on hyperthyroid numbers. I should not be having the issues I'm having. The fatigue, the constant low-grade pain.
So, the doctor threw out a potential diagnosis: chronic fatigue syndrome. I researched it, and some of the symptoms kinda-sorta fit.
She also offered me a prescription of Cymbalta.
Hold the fuck on. I am NOT depressed. I'm angry and frustrated. And even moreso, at this point because the 'scrip I was offered would have exacerbated my current symptoms.
So. Chronic fatigue syndrome: it's the annoying younger sibling of Fibromyalgia. Some docs have posited that CFS can be alleviated or reversed by graded exercise. This has not been my experience. If I manage to stay within my limits, I'm okay. If I push the limits even a little, I'm not okay, and I'm not okay for DAYS.
The problem is, I'm still trying to find my limits. It's really hard on days where I wake up feeling okay: on the one hand, I want to get shit done; on the other, I'm afraid to do it, because I don't know how much I can do without getting laid up with an extra helping of exhaustion and low-grade pain following me through the next three or four days, sometimes bad enough to impede minimal function.
And further research into the antidepressant? It does not alleviate symptoms of depression caused by either hypothyroid disorder, or CFS or Fibro. Antidepressants can, in fact, exacerbate all of the aforementioned conditions.
I have found some things that help, somewhat. A daily maintenance dose of Aleve helps with some of the discomfort, and I've found, ironically enough, that I wake up feeling better after I've had a bit of a drink before bed. Staying within my limits, and not doing too much even on days I'm feeling pretty good.
Other than that, there's nothing to be done. I just have to deal with it.
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